2:30 AM – checking little noses and toes for warmth, do they need blankets, has anyone flooded their bed yet, etc…
Brightly colored ponies on some kind of rainbow adventure on the TV – G-d forbid I should try and put on an old ep of Iron Chef…
Time to make dinner – is it worth bothering to put in some effort to make an absolutely delicious chicken stew that will go uneaten by the twins, necessitating a last-minute mac’n’cheese rescue…sigh…mac’n’cheese it is from the get-go…just don’t have it in me to make two separate meals…
9:30pm – Kidlets are FINALLY asleep, can I watch PBS’s new Sherlock series (on DVD of course)…better not, I’ve got a home that looks like ground zero of a hurricane, piles of laundry to tend to, and after a quick check on the girls – ‘Build the damn ark, already Noah!’ – yes, we’ve got another flooded bed…mystery and mayhem and lovely British accents will have to wait for another time…
Both my husband and I would LOVE to see the new Dark Shadows movie, but will we get to? FAT CHANCE!! Contemplating getting a sitter for the girls results in visions of ‘baby-sitter-shaped red wet smears on the floor’ dancing thru our heads, so that’d be a ‘no’.
In fact, I think the last date we had was a year ago – my brother Steve and his wife had come over to sit for us for a couple of hours. We haven’t heard from them since. I kid you not.
And the date before that one was three years ago.
And should I actually have some miniscule erg of energy with which to get frisky with, after the girls are in bed, just a glance at my husband – the exhausted zombie-guy currently collapsed in a groaning heap on our couch – quickly puts the kibosh on anything of that sort.
I haven’t been to a Starfleet meeting in nearly six months (I average about .5 meetings per year.)
But is it worth it? HELL YES!!
But sometimes I really miss autonomy in determining how I spend my time. Surprisingly, given my druthers, I’m not actually interested in chatting about mommy-related things – GASP! HORROR!
I’m a geek. I like geek things. I would like nothing better than to completely re-do my bedroom to resemble the bridge of the starship U.S.S. Enterprise. (My husband, however, draws the line at wearing either pointy prosthetic ears or a red shirt.)
Come September, the girls will finally have made it to Kindergarten – a full-day schedule from 9AM – 2:30PM – and I’ll have the time, energy and freedom I now crave so desperately.
And I’ll probably be spending a good deal of it missing my little girls and wishing for the days they took up every iota of my existence.
“Don’t it always seem to go – that you don’t know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone…” – Joni Mitchell, ‘Big Yellow Taxi’