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Wrestling With My Inner Demons :D

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I’ve actually been pretty busy the past several months, but none of that managed to make it into my blog. The reason for that? I’ve been fraught with anxiety over it all.

However, it’s all good stuff!  I’ve started a YouTube channel for my geeky culture videos, I’ve begun a local Geeky Grown-Up club and gotten the library to sponsor it, I’ve begun this year’s production of my WishStones (orgonite), and had my first-ever sale of those which went far better than I expected, and I’m back to working on my urban fantasy novel trilogy.

But the reason I’ve slowed down on my blog, my videos, my orgonite-making, my book-writing is all the same – I’m scared to bits, totally anxious over any and all of it and it’s gotten me practically paralysed with fear.

Totally not of the fun-ness.

All of my endeavors, including this blog, have to do, in some way, with putting myself out there, making myself vulnerable, opening my self – my best and most precious inner parts of me – up for rejection and disaster.

I’m scared to fail, I’m scared to be criticized, I’m scared to be rejected, to be thought foolish, to be ridiculed, to be dismissed as a nut or weirdo.

And I’m scared to succeed – because what happens then? Consistency is not my strong point, neither is organization, and if I try to make anything into any kind of consistent endeavor, I’m scared I’ll muck it up, it’ll be  a disaster, I’ll get cheated, I’ll fail to fill orders, scared quality will go down with repetition, scared that I’ll have to deal with SPREADSHEETS!!!! AAUUGGHH!!!! (I positively loathe spreadsheets!) It’ll all be a confusing, bewildering mass of overwhelming disorganization and I’ll be feeling all kinds of terrified and chaos and there’ll be a rain of toads somewhere in there as well!cat 3

What if I make mistakes? What if people just look pityingly at me and condescendingly tell me that I just don’t belong among others who are far more ‘with it’ and ‘put together’ and ‘professional’ and far, far better at doing things than I can ever hope to be?

Am I completely freakin’ nuts to ever think I could be good at anything? I just want to hide under the covers with lots of plump pillows and my plush critters. Go away, world! Lara is busy hiding until everything packs up and goes away!

So yeah, scariness and anxiety.

But ya know – I don’t want to live like that. I don’t want these self-limiting feels to hold me down, and it’s the scariest thing in the world (and I’m sniffling back mucus and wiping tears as I write this post), but I know what I want in my life, I know how I want my dreams to come true and instead of waiting for a fairy godmother to come and wave her wand and do it for me (’cause it would still be me, at the end, living in that life, fears included if I don’t manage to beat ’em before then) so I’ve decided to not let myself get in the way of myself getting what I want.

So I’ve re-started editing the video I shot the footage for back in May, I’ve gotten back to work on my book again, and I’ve set up that Geeky Grown-Up club (20 or so members so far and we haven’t even had our first meeting), and I had that WishStone sale, and I’ve started making more WishStones.  And I’m so, so, so freakin’ scared while I’m doing it all, but I’m doing it anyway! (Except I’m careful to not be all stressed when I’m making the WishStones, because that messes them up,. I can manage to be calm in those moments because it’s really fun to make them :D)!  And I’ll be going to a blogger convention in a few days where there’ll be loads of other people that will likely be better dressed, more poised, more savvy and generally more everything than my own personal hot mess of a self.

I figure that eventually, the fear will give up and go away as long as I keep moving forward doing what I want.  When I go for it and the sky doesn’t fall, and I can positively manifest the experiences I want to have and my worries are proven to be unfounded, I figure those worries will dissipate.

So if you happen to stumble across me somewhere, curled up in a fetal position, whimpering and having a stress-moment, don’t worry, I’ll be ok.  I’ll get back up on the horse (not a real horse – I’m acrophobic and horses are way high up there) and get back to whatever it was that I was doing.cat 2

But hugs are always appreciated. And if you need a hug too, I’ll be happy to oblige – as long as you’ve got a reasonable minimum of good personal hygiene and don’t get grope-y. 😀

We’re all going to have our dreams come true, we just have to keep plugging away at it and it’ll happen, I just know it! 😀

We scaredy cats can succeed at getting our happy-ish endings too! 😀

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GeekerJoy1- Episode 3: @adagioteas Fandom Tea Blends Review & Giveaway

In this video, I do a review of 5 different fandom-themed tea blends provided by Adagio.com and announce the winner of the Star Trek Chibi giveaway from my previous episode.

Also in this episode, a new giveaway for a $10 gift certificate from Adagio.com (sponsored by me :D) is announced!

$10 Adagio.com Gift Certificate Giveaway Rules:
1) Must subscribe to my Geeker Joy1 YouTube channel AND comment on this video (not on this blog, although you’re welcome to do that too, but it won’t count towards the giveaway entry).
2) USA only, age 18+

Giveaway ends 5/25/17 11:59 pm EST (New York time). Winner will be chosen randomly and announced in the next video.

**Winner has two weeks to claim prize via contact form: https://geekerjoy1.wixsite.com/contact
or an alternate winner will be selected who will also have two weeks to claim prize via contact form.  If neither of the winners claim the prize within two weeks of being notified via either Youtube video announcement or reply to their comment, then the prize will be forfeit and go into an unclaimed prizes box which will be offered in a new giveaway at a later date.

If you would like to order any of the Adagio.com fandom blends reviewed in my video, here are the links:

5. GISHWHES Avengers Initiative Tea – https://www.adagio.com/signature_blend/blend.html?blend=118246
4. Sailor Moon Tea – http://www.adagio.com/signature_blend/blend.html?blend=68058
3. Colin Firth Tea – http://www.adagio.com/signature_blend/blend.html?blend=97368
2. Dammit Tea – https://www.adagio.com/signature_blend/blend.html?blend=36980
1. Tea With Mr. Tumnus Tea – https://www.adagio.com/signature_blend/blend.html?blend=117139

Adagio Teas can be found online here: http://www.adagio.com
Twitter:  https://twitter.com/adagioteas
Facebook:  https://www.facebook.com/AdagioTeas/
Instagram:  https://www.instagram.com/adagioteas/
Pinterest:  https://www.pinterest.com/adagioteas/

*The tea samples I reviewed in this video were provided to me by Adagio.com for free, I only paid a very small shipping fee.  The opinions expressed by me in this video regarding the teas and Adagio.com are entirely my own and not influenced in any way by having received the free samples.  The Star Trek Chibi giveaway prize and the $10 Adagio.com giveaway prize are provided by myself.

Redditgifts 2017 Snack Exchange Unboxing Vid & Giveaway! #Lowentry #Giveaway

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Recently, I’ve begun getting in touch with my inner geek and have started making YouTube videos about the things I geek out over. It’s been great fun and now I have my own channel!

One of the things that delights my geeky self are online gift-exchanges. 😀  Redditgifts.com has dozens each year for different themes, and this past month I signed up for two – yarn (which I did not make a video about, sorry! :D) and SNACKS!!!

This time, both my own Santa and the person I was Santa for, were Canadian! Yay! (Btw, if you sign up for an exchange and agree to accept international partners (it’s optional), beware of shipping costs! Shipping can be so pricey that it’ll be more expensive than the gift you’re sending!)

So here’s the unboxing vid I made of the Canadian snacks my Santa sent me, including some snacks, like Smarties and Wine Gummies, I’d only heard of on BBC shows!

 

At the end of the video, there’s a giveaway for a Star Trek Chibi 3-pack blind bag that is open to folks in the USA/CAN that ends on 4/28, so please enter and good luck!

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The Prize!

**Winner has two weeks to claim prize via contact form: https://geekerjoy1.wixsite.com/contact
or an alternate winner will be selected who will also have two weeks to claim prize via contact form.  If neither of the winners claim the prize within two weeks of being notified via either Youtube video announcement or reply to their comment, then the prize will be forfeit and go into an unclaimed prizes box which will be offered in a new giveaway at a later date.

Simply Earth Essential Oil Recipe Box – March 2017 Review & Giveaway

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I love subscription boxes! From reading Gary Chapman’s ‘The Five Love Languages’, I know that one of my main ‘Love Languages’ is the giving and receiving of gifts, and wow, some of the subscription boxes out on the market nowadays are one heckuva gift!

Normally, I’m into the geeky, sci-fi fandom type of boxes, or even the ultra kawaii ones, but this time, I was happy to take a walk on the DIY & natural health side!

My journey began with Simply Earth’s Essential Oil Recipe Box for March 2017! ($39.99 USD per month for subscriptions, Simply Earth estimates that the value of the included items would be approx. $200 USD if purchased elsewhere individually.)

They sure pack a lot into that box!  Mine came with 5 essential oils (100% pure, therapeutic grade), a stack of recipe cards on a binder ring for putting those oils to work, a couple of small glass vials for storing any diffuser blends I whipped up, and…..drumroll please….everything I needed to make my own….SOAP!!!  That’s right, everything – molds and some melt-able soap base (a LOT of that was included, so I can make lots of soap!)

I’d never made soap before, but I see all these handmade soaps of every conceivable sort everywhere lately, and I wanted in on that – making my own, chemical-free soaps – ones that smelled exactly the way I wanted them to.  So I was VERY glad to get a chance to take a crack at churning out my own sudsy goodness!

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But first, a little licorice interlude – I dropped some of the box’s anise oil into my diffuser necklace and the whole world was smelling like licorice! YUM!!

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Then I got to work, melting the base (really easy!) adding the ingredients, doing a little stirring…

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And then a little pouring…

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Then I needed to let it cool & harden (I popped it into the freezer and that speeded things up a bit…)

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I popped it out of the mold – and voila! I had made my very own bar of Orange Cream Exfoliating Soap! Huzzah!! 😀

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Here is my video review of this box if you’d like to watch me make the soap step-by-step!

One of my favorite things about Simply Earth (besides their awesome boxes :D) is that they donate 13% of their profits to end human trafficking!  That’s really incredible and I’m really happy about that!  Use code “SIMPLYFREE” and get first month FREE w/diffuser purchase!

Also on my list of favorite things about this awesome company, is that they are letting me host a giveaway of one of their terrific Essential Oil Recipe boxes that come with oils and all the things you need to make the main DIY item!

Just complete the entries on the Rafflecopter below and you’ll be entered into the giveaway! 😀

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Giveaway Entries & Rules (In case something goes wonky with the Rafflecopter form, you can still easily complete all the entries with the links below. 😀

GIVEAWAY RULES:

1) 3 ways to enter (plus extra bonus entry):

-Subscribe to my YouTube channel:  
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4QCde-pSVLuP10hRDGLbKA?&ytbChannel=Geeker%20Joy1

-Leave a comment below on this Review/Giveaway post.

-Follow me on Instagram:
https://www.instagram.com/geekerjoy2017/

**BONUS ENTRY**  **BONUS ENTRY** **BONUS ENTRY**
– Visit Simply Earth’s website and take a little look around 😀
http://simplyearth.com?rfsn=542368.d319e   THEN, just comment below:  “Bonus Entry – I visited the Simply Earth Essential Oil Recipe Box website.”

2) You can do all three methods…one time each for a  total of 3 entries, and if you do the BONUS entry, that will make a total of 4 entries!
3) Giveaway open to residents of USA, Age 18+
4) Prize fulfillment will be from SimplyEarth and may take up to  4-6 weeks to receive.
5) Entry period is until 11:59 EST (New York time) on 4/8/17
6) Winner will be chosen by random drawing and will be notified via email.  Winner will have 48 hours to respond with a shipping address or a new winner will be chosen.
Good Luck! 😀

*Simply Earth provided me with one of their monthly subscription boxes (est. value $39.99 USD) to facilitate this review. The opinions contained in this review are my own and were not influenced in any way by Simply Earth. I received no monetary compensation for this review or giveaway.

 

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